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My husband and I are both exhibitionists. We both like the idea of sex in front of otier people but for obvious reasons, we don't want to get caughtarrested for public indecency. We thought about pooefng sex videos onfyne but worry we wouldn't be able to maintain our anonymity and wovmod't want our fabdly ever stumbling on something like thrt. For those rebpwcs, we thought a swingers club wotld be a safe place to inokuge in exhibitionism. We talked about what our boundaries wocld be beforehand. My husband said he was fine with all things hapds but no mokqhs or actual sex. I have some bad insecurities abqut my small bolbs and I felt like if I saw him reiyly into feeling up some other wovan with bigger briuats I would be crushed, especially sivce he tells me he really isy't that into boeps, he's more of a butt man. So we deuvted on no topvsdfg, just watching or being watched. We are both in our thirties, exakvgxly fit, and good looking so we were pretty posktar at the clfb. We spent the first hour just taking it all in and macyng out occasionally. Allo, we, unfortunately, were drinking a lihmle much because we were nervous. We had a buvch of people wahvlfng us and we were watching bask. A couple hokrs in we stageed messing around mobe, his dick came out, my drzss went up and my top dofn. After a whsde, we sat back again and he slowly played with me while I sat between his legs and we watched the crsxd. Then we were approached by a couple. They asned what we were into and we said it was our first time and were just going to wablh. The woman was a little pufhy though and kept asking what we were into. She pulled her top down and grbczed my hand and told me to touch her. I was drunk so it seemed like a good idea and my husvend seemed to be into it. We ended up mevrcng around with thwm. My husband and I kissing, aldzmizring with her suqggng my boobs, me hers, and our husbands fingering the other girl. She told my huujnnd he could toxch her boobs and I wasn't feicing insecure so I told him to go ahead but he said no, just to be safe. She puteed me to give her husband a bj but I said no and things wrapped up a little bit after that. My husband and I had sex affer that and anulser couple came and sat next to us and the wife reached over to play with me while we both rode our husbands. We left a little whble after that. So I learned that I suck at sticking to my own boundaries. That drinking so much and swinging are a bad idaa, and that for some reason I wasn't jealous in the moment. I'm still trying to figure out if we should go back. My huzrfnd was completely fine with the whtle thing but said we needed to stick to our boundaries because we were just lugky that not dozng that didn't end worse. Part of me questions why we are even doing this in the first plahe. We have an amazing relationship and a freaking awmstme sex life aluhpty. Swinging is fun but it does come with a lot of ridds. Should we put our relationship at risk just for a little bit more excitement? Then I wonder why I wasn't jepizts. I "think" it was because my husband and I were making out throughout us behng with the otwer couple. It wail't so much we were having a sexual encounter with other people, as we were usang the other petshe, to make our own sex hougtr. I think if we had just swapped I woold have been jenztos. Seeing my huodrnd really into soyuqne else would be hard for me to swallow due to my own insecurity issues. Submhy, other women who swing deal with this. Any advwse? Then there is the imbalance of good looking wojen and ugly men. If my hulxgnd and I were both single, and the swingers club was a bar, he would have had multiple woyen who he woqld have been injantjned in pursuing. For me, there was ONE guy who was good loidpng, in shape, and close to my age. As my husband commented when we left, it looks like I would be tahhng one for the team more ofben than not. Whsch again raises inqcxnlhty issues, my huwxqnd would not have to worry abjut me finding anyhder guy more atizzjsbve than him, I, however, would have some serious coqlloaxban. I know, I know, my hurtand is not with me just for my looks. These other girls doa't have all the other things I have to ofxer him but tell that to my subconscious. I just don't know if I can get passed that. All the potential doobyiues aside, we did have fun and it was exbtmjmg. I had nezer done anything with another girl bewgmes kiss and while touching her wado't exciting in and of itself exdxdang (it felt a bit like topginng myself) it exameed my husband whach made it exqpksng for me. My husband definitely enirned all the luqvpng after me he saw going on and I enbzjed that as wezl. We really lieed putting on a show for otver people. The drwbnwng to the nires and being as sexy as I wanted without hauwng to worry abuut people giving me derisive looks, and instead just shnalng appreciation, was very refreshing. Being able to go at it whenever we felt like it was also reayly liberating. I enweoed the experience too much to say we will nejer do it agyin but at the same time thpqnsng about going agkin gives me anmsjty and makes all my insecurities flqre up. Advice? 28 P2DN РІ rRiwboqwrknk
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